Just one of those days…
Today is just one of those days I wish it was raining out side…
Its not a bad thing. I believe we all need those kinds of days. The days where everyone that is cheerful should be punched in the face. I cant stand being at school on these days because I am constantly surrounded by those types of people. But I am not upset about being depressed. I have been here before. Honestly, I have been way to cheerful lately, and it actually feels good to be in a dont bother me kind of mood. I believe that if we never got these kinds of days, we would shrivel inside. Our world would be tainted. Pain and awareness of being in pain or the lack of concern often wakes us up to the fact that the world is not what it should be. I find myself working through the places I feel I have gone wrong on these types of days. Plus I get to listen to those great “sad music” tracks that I dont want to hear when I am in a good mood. Right now I am listening to the Cavaliers- Last Kiss. I also have Blue October – Hate me and Stone Sour – Bother. Do any of you, my invisireaders, have any songs you listen to when you are in a blue funk and don’t really want to get out of it? If you do please let me know. Well, I am late for math class, but I am not going to leave until my Blue October has finished downloading. 83% it is close. I was sitting outside this morning contemplating over the “mistakes” I have made so far in my life. I know it is hard to say that I don’t want those memories though. I feel that those are the ones that shape me the most. But the idea of maybe going back to take them away is very appealing. I know a couple that if I could, I would go back and change. There is also many that I wouldn’t change. I am not going to get to personal, not on here anyways. Well, I feel a little better now that I have gotten a little bit of my tude off of my chest… Thanks for reading, I will be back tomorrow. Take it easy and be loving to those around you. Who knows, they may just be on drugs and have a weapon. Peace.
